[ is he alright? it's hard for him to say. to see taair going through something like that, and getting some sense that it's how things could be... ]

I feel like I should be asking you that but... it's okay if it doesn't make much sense right now.

I just...

[ how does he find the words to articulate what he wants? how much he wants for taair? ]

... Can I ask you for something selfish?