[ there is a little surprise at being touched, even though taair is kind enough in being here at all. but there is also something grateful for it. that he's not being pushed away or reviled. even though he did something so violent and horrifying, that he's still only being met with kindness.

he wants it, so badly, even if he doesn't think he's done a single thing to deserve it ]

... no. [ softly, because taair has seen his memories. seen that yves died killing a friend. ]

But I...

[ have to keep going ]

I don't think I'm the one people should be worrying about... when I'm the one who still gets to be here.