[ . . . ]

... I'm okay most of the time. I have fun with people, and I think I'm lucky to be cared for. I do what I can to make people happy, because I... want them to be happy.

[ this is true. most of his disposition is just this happy go lucky guy and that is real and true. however. ]

There... are times where I do hate myself too, though. [ like now. ] I know I can be arrogant. I can be selfish, and accept that care even when I shouldn't.