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[ i simply don't believe you

but yves will reach out then to gently take taair's hand in his, thoughtful ]

... I do hope that you and Del at least talk about it. That he gets a chance to say his piece too. There's...

[ a beat, thoughtful ]

I do know how lovely it is to be surrounded by people who care about you. Even so... to love and be loved is different, and it's okay to say that it is. It's okay to want it. The feeling is different, and it is sweet and perfect.

... and I think there is merit in just telling someone that they make you feel that way before you can't anymore. Who wouldn't want to hear that they're loved?

[ it is a little hard for yves to wrap his head around - for people to deny or dismiss the exact feeling he's been searching for his entire life. isn't it beautiful? isn't it worthwhile? even if it is not forever. ]

[ i kept ichiro goodboy goodboyson from getting kissed until the literal last day at 3 am do you think i cannot do it again this time

anyway. he will allow yves to take his hand, pulled free of his hiding place, and he frowns at him as he finally sets the book down. his face is, and probably will continue to be, red, but the look on his face is thoughtful, a little troubled. like always, he takes what yves says into careful consideration, even if his own hesitation reads on his face. ]

I... suppose so. [ mmf. ] I don't know that it has truly reached that point - though... I suppose I don't really know what that point is, either.

[ on top of the experience, there's a block there like a wall of his circumstance. ]

It just does not feel fair to anyone.

[ he smiles gently: ] Even if it's not love... I think it's always worth telling people how you feel about them, especially if it's something that they might not get to hear.

[ and he does think fondly about something that del told him, expression softening ]

It is just my opinion. [ his stupid, romantic, absurd opinion. he gives taair's hand a squeeze ] But... the world is a place of endless possibility. I hope you get to open your heart to some of it.

[ what does that mean. claws at the bars.

taair, unknowing of taunting meta text, instead considers that concept for a moment from behind his book. to tell people that you care for them... is that not something he's done here often, easily? is this truly all that different?

it makes it feel a little easier, and after a moment, he murmurs: ] I see your point.

[ in the face of everything. in the face of loss every week and a bleak, miserable future. had he not told daigo much of the same? that being trapped was awful and you had to enjoy the door being open, when you could? ]

Don't raise your expectations too high, my friend... we will just have to see what the future holds.

... as nice as it is, I don't think that every love needs to manifest in a relationship. Even if I do think that's beautiful, too.

[ matchmaking is fun and it is so, so nice to see people in love and happy. yves truly has a future as a wedding planner if he would just stop ending up in situations where people need to die.

but. ]

Just talking about it and giving it any sort of chance... is enough, I think. I'll keep my expectations at exactly the right level, I just... wanted to give you a bit of a nudge about it, I guess.

Genuine affection for affection's sake is still worthwhile.

[ please leave your canon and have the wedding planner romcom life you deserve yves i'm begging you

there's a little huff. fondly: ] You are the expert in that field, my dear Yves.

[ in affection and affection giving, and all of that jazz. after all it was yves who helped welcome a shy bird into handholds and hairpets, into the occasional hugs. ]

I have to wonder how many people you've touched with this sort of thing... were we your only [ airquotes, teasing: ] "victims"?

[ he smiles happily at that, because if he can help give others that same warm feeling that they're loved and cared for, then he delights in it. it's his favorite thing. ]

No... but just like I'll keep your business under wraps, I'll do the same for theirs.

[ he doesn't out people until they out themselves publicly on chipper haha yay ]

I just hope it all works out. It'd be lovely, to have just a few more bright spots in heaven.

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